One knows that plans often don't work out. I don't know how many times I've wanted to have a party or somekind of social event, I plan it, invite people, who are usually like "yeah, that sounds like fun" and stuff, and then they don't show. There are always very legitimate reasons, but they just can't make it, so the party is a no go. Keep it small, and only invite a few peple you know will be there. You can't ever KNOW they'll be there. And sometimes they can't come. And it's all understandable, but it's all annoying too.
I just set up plans for something, and things like this always go through my head... too much past experience I suppose...
K, I'm done.
LB
30 May 2006
21 May 2006
Ningún Comentario
Nobody comments on my blog either.
This is either because nobody reads this, or because no one has anything to say about this.
I heard of ONE case where someone tried to comment, but I had some settings wrong or something.
Well I fixed it.
So there.
:-P
LB
This is either because nobody reads this, or because no one has anything to say about this.
I heard of ONE case where someone tried to comment, but I had some settings wrong or something.
Well I fixed it.
So there.
:-P
LB
19 May 2006
Focus changes
I look at what I have been doing, what I was going for, and I realize that everything I was going to do (when I was a child) has changed. Almost. There are just a couple of things that are going to stay the same as when I was a child, but there are some things that I'm planning on and working towards that, even when I was a child and believed anything was possible, I would have said I was just a little (or a lot) crazy.
That seems to be a recurring thing...
Anyway, the point is, people change, and often much more than we believe is possible. Some people think nothing ever changes, but in reality, everything stands in motion (oxymoron?). Seriously, everything is always moving. Even if we don't count the fact that we're on the Earth and that Earth is moving at thousands of miles per hour, time moves us on, and every little thing affects us. The Butterfly Effect it is called; the wind caused by the flutter of butterfly wings affects the weather on the other side of the globe. Or you could just say that out of small things great things come to pass. Thus, one cannot say that something doesn't affect them or that they are immune to those effects - desensitized, perhaps, but not unaffected or immune. Sometimes overnight you become someone else almost entirely, or it may take years for the change to take effect. Of course, you are really just changing your outer shell; the basic fundamental of who you are takes forever to change; the foundation is the last thing to remove when building anew.
I have changed so much, though not nearly as much as I want to in some areas. Still, there are some directions my life is going that I cannot see my way to without so much more change. So much change...
Heh. I never ramble this much on a public blog, but maybe I'm getting more use to it...
Night,
LB
That seems to be a recurring thing...
Anyway, the point is, people change, and often much more than we believe is possible. Some people think nothing ever changes, but in reality, everything stands in motion (oxymoron?). Seriously, everything is always moving. Even if we don't count the fact that we're on the Earth and that Earth is moving at thousands of miles per hour, time moves us on, and every little thing affects us. The Butterfly Effect it is called; the wind caused by the flutter of butterfly wings affects the weather on the other side of the globe. Or you could just say that out of small things great things come to pass. Thus, one cannot say that something doesn't affect them or that they are immune to those effects - desensitized, perhaps, but not unaffected or immune. Sometimes overnight you become someone else almost entirely, or it may take years for the change to take effect. Of course, you are really just changing your outer shell; the basic fundamental of who you are takes forever to change; the foundation is the last thing to remove when building anew.
I have changed so much, though not nearly as much as I want to in some areas. Still, there are some directions my life is going that I cannot see my way to without so much more change. So much change...
Heh. I never ramble this much on a public blog, but maybe I'm getting more use to it...
Night,
LB
17 May 2006
(Insert some kind of interesting title here)
Somethings feel right.
Other things don't.
That aside, some ideas seem completely ludicrous and otherwise basically impossible. But the interesting thing is when you look for the proof that your daydream will never be more than just a daydream, and instead you are told not to discount the idea merely because it's ludicrous. So I look for other reasons to discount it, but none will surface except the same sort of self-doubt that is always present. So all I am left with is the need to push forward; the inevitable, driving need to fight towards this idea that seems impossible by all avenues except one. Now I might think to stop the idea just from that, but the fact is, when one feels told to go a particular direction, and there is only one way to go, shouldn't one be excited that there is a way to go and just run along happy?
Of course, I don't know the actual path, it just seems there is only one available in that direction, and I don't know which it is. It's the path I'm on, I guess, which means that I usually have no idea of what's ahead. But this may be the strongest ludicrous idea I've had in a while, and certainly the most pressing upon my mind right now. It's also the only one that I think might just actually happen in the near future. The relatively near future anyway. I'd say more, but I'm not going to. So too bad. Nyah.
I'm done for now.
LB
Other things don't.
That aside, some ideas seem completely ludicrous and otherwise basically impossible. But the interesting thing is when you look for the proof that your daydream will never be more than just a daydream, and instead you are told not to discount the idea merely because it's ludicrous. So I look for other reasons to discount it, but none will surface except the same sort of self-doubt that is always present. So all I am left with is the need to push forward; the inevitable, driving need to fight towards this idea that seems impossible by all avenues except one. Now I might think to stop the idea just from that, but the fact is, when one feels told to go a particular direction, and there is only one way to go, shouldn't one be excited that there is a way to go and just run along happy?
Of course, I don't know the actual path, it just seems there is only one available in that direction, and I don't know which it is. It's the path I'm on, I guess, which means that I usually have no idea of what's ahead. But this may be the strongest ludicrous idea I've had in a while, and certainly the most pressing upon my mind right now. It's also the only one that I think might just actually happen in the near future. The relatively near future anyway. I'd say more, but I'm not going to. So too bad. Nyah.
I'm done for now.
LB
10 May 2006
Bike riding near midnight
It's funny how empty streets can be sometimes, when it's that late at night. I almost stopped by a friend's house, but when it is that late, it may be considered rude to stop by so late.
I dunno...
Maybe I should risk a little more, be impulsive a little more, be dashing a little more, more with Big Red!!
wait...
It's "Longer with Big Red!"...
Doh!
oh well...
Night,
LB
I dunno...
Maybe I should risk a little more, be impulsive a little more, be dashing a little more, more with Big Red!!
wait...
It's "Longer with Big Red!"...
Doh!
oh well...
Night,
LB
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